lalalalalalala, listen to yourself.

My Dad passed away, I just needed to write that somewhere. It's not real that's he's not alive anymore.
I don't know. Noah's coming to school with me tomorrow to get my work for all my classes for the week =/.
RIP Dad.

Noah's been with me for the last month non stop, and I'm glad he was at my house this morning when I found out. I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

I'm so thankful to have my family, including Jessica and Nikki.



i hope we are happy forever, i love him.

i hangout with him every day

noah slept over on christmas eves eve and we seriously had so much fun, we ate mac and cheese at 2am and watched bad santa until we both fell asleep. and then i woke up by his snoring so i watched snl, then fell back asleep then was woken up by morning wood and delusional pegging. he was still sleeping while thrusting me. i was like, oh. then it stopped i went back to sleep woke up at 9 to more morning wood, and then i made him pancakes. so i jumped on his back and kissed his eye and then gave him my pancakes, we watched morning cartoons. then we took a nappy then showered and went to tb to get lunch :-) then we went back home to be lazy again THEN we went to applebees around 7 to eat dinner then went back home to sleep again<3. then on christmas we watched a movie more sleeping, etc. i love him a lot! we watched so much rob & big, everything on that show is us! snooky... DO WORK! haha<33. i need to go on birth control because i haven't used a condom since the day i met noah. but i feel like i can't get pregnant anyway.

yesterday jessica and i spent 7 hours at tattoo lous. i got two tatties done on my upper and bottom lip of jessica and noahs names<3. we just chilled in the back seats where employees chill. we watched jackass with ashley tony and ashelys boyfriend. then we just learned about piercings and tattoos and stuff from tony. we also got branded, which was scary at first because it's this 375 degree brander coming straight at you. it would be better if i got it done off gaurd but the anticipation of it coming down on your arm is so scary. and then you hear your skin pop. delish!

we're going back to lous today. yay. then i have work at fuckinggggggg, 5.
then my babes coming over<3.

okay bye.




i got jessica's name on my top lip but its hard to take a picture of right now!

laterrrrrr.

last night noah came over and we had a fight and i dont remember it was and i started to beat him to deaath and then he sorta hit me in a way that was like protecting himself and now i have a bruisey :( and then we had the longest conversation ever and then i was crying hysterically and then HE started crying and it broke my heart into a thousand pieces and every piece stabbed my chest wall. i love him to death and to see him hysterical was the most heart wrenching thing i could have ever endured. but in the end, everything is 100 percent better than it was and i feel like every time a fight happens it just brings us closer if that's possible. i love him, so much. jeremy wants me to date him and i just want to be like FUCK OFF because yeah jeremy's cool and shit, but no one compares to my boyfriend. he bought me roses and a card with a bulldog on it that said, if you weren't already in my life i'd follow you home and ask you to keep me.

15 months is coming up!

we are adopting a baby bulldog :-)

<3.

jessssssssssssssssss is out w/ joe right now heheheheh :)

so i got paid and its only weds, and i already dont have any money left because i have to fill up my gas tank and fucking pay for everything else. wow wow i hate my life. i need to harrass hollister for my mother fucking check before i rip their heads off. stupid fucks. im glad i quit, quite possibly the worst job ever. anyway, taco bell has been stupid because of this e coli shit.

jessica and i are tattoo lou girls now, we give out coups and we get mad discounts on our shit.
i love how we go there every weds and friday to hangout with joe and tony<3 and bring them coffee.
hrmmmmmmm. tomorrow we are going anyway too, to get hats yo.

uhhhh. i coach jeremy's hockey team now. which is pretty much MY hockey team since i'm the coach :-).
i love jeremys brother and his brothers g/f. i hung out w/ jeremy too much this week to a point where i want to puke.
i miss hanging out with mike, we got to hangout tonight at worky and he made me hot chocolate and made sure there was milk and ice in it since bun water is damn hot. we sat in the back changing the music and watching dan and jon on camera dancing it was funnn. i like spending time with him sometimes cause most of the time hes the best.

anyway. it's almost 1 am. i dyed my hair to burgandy some spots are still the same color as before because i kept shaking on jessica.
i bought coke tonight and right now im feeling good although now its wearing off.

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okay bye.

ive been working my life away i need new clothes i need to wake up and straigten my hair i like how ive seen andrew garb a lot this week and i love hugs and smoking and i love how tb is dead because of the ecoli thing and i love my new barbell and i love life but not really but really i cant wait to see my check tomorrow it will be -2 dollars i cant wait fuck fuck uhhhhhhhh i need new shoes too and i need a lot of thigns blahsfsjafkasflakjfafaklsjfafkfjafaf so hanging out with dan mike and jeremy now is cool i geuss whatever uh im tired im going to sleep pat comes home soon to tell me boring stories of nyu baslfjsajfakfjafksjsaflksfjlakjfsafkajfsalf i love driving charlie home and i lvoe his last name l'hamadoooooo or whatever i cant spell it i can just say it we have fun on the way home hes a good dresser im buying noah clothes that look like rob dyryererk because they have the same lips who knows uh okay alksjfslkajfasfbye.

weds was my birthday and it was sooo fun!! i got my tongue pierced FINALLY!@#!

funnest 4 day off vacation!!

noah slept over on thanksgiving and jessica came over too and we watched in dreams and then jessica left and then noah and i stayed awake until 4 am watching family guy and halloween ehaehae then i had work which sucked then i went to noahs house and slept until 934812984 o clock then we went to friendlys and then we went back to his house to sleep and then i eventually went home and hung out with jessica and then she slept over and then we hung out with kristie and then we visited noah working at stopand shoppie and then we went to borders for 8 hours and sat in the cafe reading maggies and then waited for nikki to get off work and then we went back to her house then we went to tb to stalk jeremy and dan then back to nikkis then jessica and i went back to my house returned videos to vid cid then picked up more videos at block buster and then we went to taco bell and dan was the manager and the dining room was closed cause it was like 12:30 and then we hung out with dan and jeremy and then we went home and laksjfklasjfa and then we eventually fell asleep at 430 am and then we awoke and then she went to work and then i went to noahs house for the day and then noah and i took a nappie and then we called vinnymaccc and smoked a bbbbb and then we went to the cheesecake factory and got cheesecake to take in the car and then i fed it to noah and then vinny ate the rest and then they went to bills and i dont like bill because hes creepy so i went to borders to stalk jessica and love her. run on sentence.

soooo on new years eve we are chillin and then we are getting a hotel and then noah and i are getting one and vinny and whatever mistress he wants to bring and then in february we might go to cancun which will be funnnn :) yayyayay.

my birthday is now in 3 days.

uhhh im bored its 1:56 wheres my period im probably preg
uhhh i have work on friday at 6am, granndddd.
today was 14 months, wooo bessssssst, i love noah.
my birthday is now in 6 dayssssssssssssssss.

jess and i made appointments w/ joe at tattoo lous to get our tattoos done, woowoeowiewoo. so excited. one day i will end up being one big tattoo. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

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its so weird being likeeeeeeee 18, cause ive been with noah since i was 16 isnt that weird yes its weird and my birthday is his 20 1/2 birthday woooooowjakjkalsjfkafjafa.

ok im sleeping then my fam is coming over and jessica and i will peel potatoes or just drive arounddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. my scion tc has the worst traction in the rain, dont ever buy one. stupid car.

.................................................. i get to spend the night at my babes house tomorrow, unless he comes here then he's spending it hurrrrrrrrrrrrr.

ok sleep i must