lalalalalalala, listen to yourself.

My Dad passed away, I just needed to write that somewhere. It's not real that's he's not alive anymore.
I don't know. Noah's coming to school with me tomorrow to get my work for all my classes for the week =/.
RIP Dad.

Noah's been with me for the last month non stop, and I'm glad he was at my house this morning when I found out. I'm so thankful to have him in my life.

I'm so thankful to have my family, including Jessica and Nikki.



i hope we are happy forever, i love him.

i hangout with him every day

noah slept over on christmas eves eve and we seriously had so much fun, we ate mac and cheese at 2am and watched bad santa until we both fell asleep. and then i woke up by his snoring so i watched snl, then fell back asleep then was woken up by morning wood and delusional pegging. he was still sleeping while thrusting me. i was like, oh. then it stopped i went back to sleep woke up at 9 to more morning wood, and then i made him pancakes. so i jumped on his back and kissed his eye and then gave him my pancakes, we watched morning cartoons. then we took a nappy then showered and went to tb to get lunch :-) then we went back home to be lazy again THEN we went to applebees around 7 to eat dinner then went back home to sleep again<3. then on christmas we watched a movie more sleeping, etc. i love him a lot! we watched so much rob & big, everything on that show is us! snooky... DO WORK! haha<33. i need to go on birth control because i haven't used a condom since the day i met noah. but i feel like i can't get pregnant anyway.

yesterday jessica and i spent 7 hours at tattoo lous. i got two tatties done on my upper and bottom lip of jessica and noahs names<3. we just chilled in the back seats where employees chill. we watched jackass with ashley tony and ashelys boyfriend. then we just learned about piercings and tattoos and stuff from tony. we also got branded, which was scary at first because it's this 375 degree brander coming straight at you. it would be better if i got it done off gaurd but the anticipation of it coming down on your arm is so scary. and then you hear your skin pop. delish!

we're going back to lous today. yay. then i have work at fuckinggggggg, 5.
then my babes coming over<3.

okay bye.




i got jessica's name on my top lip but its hard to take a picture of right now!

laterrrrrr.

last night noah came over and we had a fight and i dont remember it was and i started to beat him to deaath and then he sorta hit me in a way that was like protecting himself and now i have a bruisey :( and then we had the longest conversation ever and then i was crying hysterically and then HE started crying and it broke my heart into a thousand pieces and every piece stabbed my chest wall. i love him to death and to see him hysterical was the most heart wrenching thing i could have ever endured. but in the end, everything is 100 percent better than it was and i feel like every time a fight happens it just brings us closer if that's possible. i love him, so much. jeremy wants me to date him and i just want to be like FUCK OFF because yeah jeremy's cool and shit, but no one compares to my boyfriend. he bought me roses and a card with a bulldog on it that said, if you weren't already in my life i'd follow you home and ask you to keep me.

15 months is coming up!

we are adopting a baby bulldog :-)

<3.

jessssssssssssssssss is out w/ joe right now heheheheh :)

so i got paid and its only weds, and i already dont have any money left because i have to fill up my gas tank and fucking pay for everything else. wow wow i hate my life. i need to harrass hollister for my mother fucking check before i rip their heads off. stupid fucks. im glad i quit, quite possibly the worst job ever. anyway, taco bell has been stupid because of this e coli shit.

jessica and i are tattoo lou girls now, we give out coups and we get mad discounts on our shit.
i love how we go there every weds and friday to hangout with joe and tony<3 and bring them coffee.
hrmmmmmmm. tomorrow we are going anyway too, to get hats yo.

uhhhh. i coach jeremy's hockey team now. which is pretty much MY hockey team since i'm the coach :-).
i love jeremys brother and his brothers g/f. i hung out w/ jeremy too much this week to a point where i want to puke.
i miss hanging out with mike, we got to hangout tonight at worky and he made me hot chocolate and made sure there was milk and ice in it since bun water is damn hot. we sat in the back changing the music and watching dan and jon on camera dancing it was funnn. i like spending time with him sometimes cause most of the time hes the best.

anyway. it's almost 1 am. i dyed my hair to burgandy some spots are still the same color as before because i kept shaking on jessica.
i bought coke tonight and right now im feeling good although now its wearing off.

askfjsakfjaslkfjasfkjasfksaf.

okay bye.

ive been working my life away i need new clothes i need to wake up and straigten my hair i like how ive seen andrew garb a lot this week and i love hugs and smoking and i love how tb is dead because of the ecoli thing and i love my new barbell and i love life but not really but really i cant wait to see my check tomorrow it will be -2 dollars i cant wait fuck fuck uhhhhhhhh i need new shoes too and i need a lot of thigns blahsfsjafkasflakjfafaklsjfafkfjafaf so hanging out with dan mike and jeremy now is cool i geuss whatever uh im tired im going to sleep pat comes home soon to tell me boring stories of nyu baslfjsajfakfjafksjsaflksfjlakjfsafkajfsalf i love driving charlie home and i lvoe his last name l'hamadoooooo or whatever i cant spell it i can just say it we have fun on the way home hes a good dresser im buying noah clothes that look like rob dyryererk because they have the same lips who knows uh okay alksjfslkajfasfbye.

weds was my birthday and it was sooo fun!! i got my tongue pierced FINALLY!@#!

funnest 4 day off vacation!!

noah slept over on thanksgiving and jessica came over too and we watched in dreams and then jessica left and then noah and i stayed awake until 4 am watching family guy and halloween ehaehae then i had work which sucked then i went to noahs house and slept until 934812984 o clock then we went to friendlys and then we went back to his house to sleep and then i eventually went home and hung out with jessica and then she slept over and then we hung out with kristie and then we visited noah working at stopand shoppie and then we went to borders for 8 hours and sat in the cafe reading maggies and then waited for nikki to get off work and then we went back to her house then we went to tb to stalk jeremy and dan then back to nikkis then jessica and i went back to my house returned videos to vid cid then picked up more videos at block buster and then we went to taco bell and dan was the manager and the dining room was closed cause it was like 12:30 and then we hung out with dan and jeremy and then we went home and laksjfklasjfa and then we eventually fell asleep at 430 am and then we awoke and then she went to work and then i went to noahs house for the day and then noah and i took a nappie and then we called vinnymaccc and smoked a bbbbb and then we went to the cheesecake factory and got cheesecake to take in the car and then i fed it to noah and then vinny ate the rest and then they went to bills and i dont like bill because hes creepy so i went to borders to stalk jessica and love her. run on sentence.

soooo on new years eve we are chillin and then we are getting a hotel and then noah and i are getting one and vinny and whatever mistress he wants to bring and then in february we might go to cancun which will be funnnn :) yayyayay.

my birthday is now in 3 days.

uhhh im bored its 1:56 wheres my period im probably preg
uhhh i have work on friday at 6am, granndddd.
today was 14 months, wooo bessssssst, i love noah.
my birthday is now in 6 dayssssssssssssssss.

jess and i made appointments w/ joe at tattoo lous to get our tattoos done, woowoeowiewoo. so excited. one day i will end up being one big tattoo. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

fajklsfjklajfaklsjfalfjalkfjsafkjasfjsakfljasf.
its so weird being likeeeeeeee 18, cause ive been with noah since i was 16 isnt that weird yes its weird and my birthday is his 20 1/2 birthday woooooowjakjkalsjfkafjafa.

ok im sleeping then my fam is coming over and jessica and i will peel potatoes or just drive arounddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. my scion tc has the worst traction in the rain, dont ever buy one. stupid car.

.................................................. i get to spend the night at my babes house tomorrow, unless he comes here then he's spending it hurrrrrrrrrrrrr.

ok sleep i must

i had fun at hollister these passed few daysssss.

prane and sally are my new biffffffffffs :) love them!

i have work in a few hours again, garrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

sooooo. call me crazy, but i much rather work at taco bell than hollister. i just like it better, beats meeeee. uh, i folded the same exact clothes for 5 hours straight, no break just continuous clothes folding. as i was leaving work, i saw chris at work and i waved and he waved back and i went to walk in but he approached a shoe costumer so i just walked away pretending like i wasn't going in hahahaha, yeah.

my birthday is in like 20 days, im excited to get my new tattoo and my tongue pierced. although it might be hard to say, "have you felt how soft our new fleece is" with a barbel in my mouth.

chris and i just had a chit chat and he has work on friday like i do but he gets a break whenever he wants and i dont i just get forgotten about hahahah i swear

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont want to go to school i havent been there in a long time that its like garhhh.

ohhhh i love my booooooooooop

uh to this day everyone else and their mother and i still thinks my boyfriend looks like john from the real world key west. hahahaha.

i'm undecided if i liked saw III. they are making saw IV and saw V.
i don't think i got those roman numerals right, but you know.

they're making another hostel. STUPID.

i love noahs mom and dad and the way his mom likes the golden girls and breaking bonaduce like me, and his dad likes american pyscho, and bob dylan like me. i'm gonna marry them instead of noah hahaha.

anyway mad cramps i made my boyfriend go out in the cold to get me all my necessities because he's my slave and then i was laying down and too tired to get up and i asked him to get me gum and he put it in my mouth because yes he is my slave.

OH, so my beautiful scion tc had a flat tire and i made jon fix it and my spare tire looks like a fucking unicycle tire. the rim is mustard yellow. i've never seen anything so ugly. UGH.

toms party was fun.

i'm calling corey, coracoid from now on because he is a bone.
jessica and corey are datinggggggggg, so cute.

i can't wait to get my gay picture developed tomorrow, woo army dyke, pirate, whatever jessica was, steve irwin bffl<3.

then my boyfriend came over after all that jabajooooooo and layed in bed with jessica and i and hes so cute and i love him more than anyoneeeeeeee and we watched scream this morning and afternoon and i love him loaaaaaaaads, im so glad we hangout every day.

i'm going to videoize our life together, because if you watched it nothing would make sense because we pretty much came up with our own language.

es a me, mario!

bye.

i got a job at hollister wooo, i start on wedsnesday.
gr8gr8.

so i got asked to work at hollister the other day.
then i had an interview.

tomorrow i have an interview at stop and shop.

i'm gonna work at borders with jessica and nikki when i turn 18.

everything in life is good right now.

i love jessica and corey.

uhhhh, i hate taco bell.

i smell so bad.

my boyfriend smells so good.

today is our 13 month anniversary :]

like always i've been hanging out every day with noah :] funfunfunfun <3

my birthday is really soon and i'm getting liek 10 more tattoos and i'm very excited since one on my arm right now is just not enough.

last night i went to panera with corey and jessica.
and i still can't stop laughing from all the mr. patten stories.
and going to target with corey and jessica.

i went to jail today, probably the worst experience ever.

i should probably start going to school hah. yeah right.



corey is silly.



she looks like that all the time.



i stole all those letters from the sign thing at my second job and i love it.

i should probably apply to suffolk tomorrow.

i'm so glad jeffrey won. noah and i were in suspense.

uh, clearly love my boyfriend :) today he picked me up after his class and we went to his house layed around then did two laps around his block and talked then went back and watched tv and i swear we are the same person because we say the same things at the same time and i love his bed and he thinks i ripped his quilt but i didn't then we went to tb to visit cynth and get fiestas then he came back to my house and we layed in bed then had fun on my staircase, i'll never forget that <3 last night he picked me up from work after this whole shpeel at work which makes me want to kill everyone there and then we hung out and he got mad at something and punched something and cut up his hand and then i started crying a lot and then he was just repeating how he loves me until tears came down from his eyes and i didn't believe him and then he took his finger wiped them and then put it on my chest and i love him for that i love kissing that boy so much it's so perfect

then tonight i went out with jessica and we got the steering wheel cover on and it was so hard! ahsfkjasf, lol we are such car dykes who shop at car stores to pimp out our cars, i got a spongebob steering wheel cover and i am in loveeee with it

my boyfriend is taking me to and from work tomorrow then he's prob staying the night because thats our life.

bye.